So the second quarter of 2025 started as scheduled.
I am still searching for peace and stability.
The unexpected thing happen as now I am a freelance educator at a community day care center.
Who knows, that I would become a teacher again one day.
Life always surprise us in its own way.
Before the new job started, I had to go to KL for an important mission.
Though it was only a two days trip, it felt like a long journey because every minute counts.
And I met the people I wanted to meet,
visited the places I been thinking off.
Tried new transportations, and explored the city on my own pace.
The unexpected journey to Ipoh also cheered my up with my girl. The journey back home was fun and healing as we chatted and enjoyed each other's accompaniment.
Cheng Beng this year was quite happening, I attended all sessions as usual.
Meeting new faces and knowing more about the families surely is something I am trying to catch up.
But anyhow, I am glad to have a bunch of family members.
Another trip to the North was also a fun and relaxing journey.
It was surely a mixed feelings to attend the wedding of the boy mum used to babysit 30 years ago.
Meeting teachers and old friends during such occasion, the ballroom is really cool.
But I like the journey the most, and the rental house we had in Alor Setar.
Together with the close family members, I feel relax and just purely joy.
We took the ferry, train and Grab, short but fruitful trip for sure.
I think I miss travelling already!
And of course, being a teacher is uneasy.
I had a challenging time trying to cope and manage the kids.
They are from all kinds of background and family challenges, so I can't expect them to be good and obedient.
To be honest, there are kids that I am scared of because they are really out of control.
But there are also kids that are sweets and cute.
So it is a mixed feeling being here with them. But I found a temporary of peace, knowing that I do not have to worry about Whatsapp messages, bosses, instructions and work issues.
This is an unexpected place for me to take a real break with some working allowance.
I am truly grateful for all the unexpected arrangements for me.
One thing really annoys me is attending interviews and applying for job.
I really feel the unwillingness of me to keep doing that.
First, I do not want to keep doing what I did.
Second, I do not have other skills for other fields.
Third, I have requirement of salary and the benefits.
Lastly, I am worry about meeting the wrong people.
I have conflicts in myself, not knowing what I really want and where I should go.
That is the not so positive side of an INFJ person.
But I believe that there is always something arranged for me somehow.
I just need to hang in there and wait for it.
And so, something calls.
Something bigger than before.
Although I am not sure about the future, but all the uncomfortable now is a part of the change.
Keep moving forward is the only way for me.
I am glad to have found something that looks interesting.
Spark my joy please~
It is almost half a year after leaving the most comfort zone I've ever had. Look how far I've come.
Trying new things and embracing all the chaotic and confused moments.
All the feelings, self-doubt, anxiety.
Knowing better about myself and making changes.
I hope I am really changing for a better self.
Because life is still a long journey....
if I am even lucky enough to live for another 40 years.
Anyway, happy birthday to the ladies.
Let's grow old together for the rest of the 40 years or more to come,
teehee!
